Last year, I successfully completed Blog Every Day April, BEDA, for the very first time, after many years of attempts dating back about a decade.
This year… I don’t think I’ll make it.
I barely wanted to post today, on day 1.
My heart just isn’t in blogging anymore, and as more time passes between blog posts, I feel this mounting pressure to write something significant and worthy of my long absence. I keep paying for this blog domain and really hate giving up on or quitting things, so this isn’t a dramatic goodbye. It’s just a tempering of expectations.
I’ll try to blog more this month. Even though I do feel a lot of pressure to write something good on here, as I have grown and the cobwebs around here have grown, BEDA has always been a chance for me to let quality of writing take a break. Done is better than perfect, and published is better than good?
Maybe because I’m an extrovert who frequently finds my thoughts falling more neatly into place as I articulate them out loud, a year of not talking as much to different people has made my thoughts feel more jumbled, more halting, less nice to write out. There are a lot of feelings tumbling around in my brain but they don’t all feel like fully-formed thoughts just yet.
Maybe over this month, more of them will be.
An unplanned habit I have been doing this year is creating monthly playlists of every song that randomly popped into my head. Here’s the playlist for March:
Sip of Starrshine 
Is BEDA your own idea/challenge?? I can’t seem to find any other references to it. It seems an interesting challenge. I am (optimistically) considering doing it next year. 🙂
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It’s not my own but it does seem to have fallen out of style lately 😅 I believe it may have been started in 2009 by author Maureen Johnson but am not sure if she was the first. My first failed year was maybe 2011 or 2012?
Good luck if you do try it next year, I’m rooting for you!
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