Sunbrellas and Parasols

The mid-Atlantic area is currently experiencing what is supposed to be the hottest day of a grueling heat wave, with the DC area supposedly getting the worst of it.

Guess where I live.

I saw a Twitter update from Anna Kendrick that hit home for me:

ParasolsJust… yes.

In China (and in fact, most parts of the world), umbrellas are regularly used to provide a personal spot of shade for you wherever you may go. The word “umbrella” comes from the root word umbra. Umbrella means “little shade”. When I’m in China, I am at a distinct disadvantage because when I’m walking on a sidewalk, most if not all the people carrying umbrellas are a bit shorter than me, leaving me at the perfect height to get an umbrella to the face. I like that I can carry an umbrella around in China, because it makes a world of a difference temperature-wise.

Original Function of the Umbrella
Courtesy of OneBag.com

Alas alack. When I carry my super nifty sunbrella that was my most prized possession in China, I get judged so hard. I feel the judgment especially harshly from fellow Asian Americans, who seem embarrassed by how fobby I look.

UH. I’m sorry that I want to stay cool and that I don’t feel like roasting my skin under the heat of the sun. Plus, I’ll admit, I feel very ladylike when I carry an umbrella around. It’s a little inconvenient but I kind of feel like I’m indulging myself in a little bit of shade. Delicious. (Plus, my sunbrella is beautiful.)

So. Fashion designers and trendsetters.  Get to making this an acceptable thing here please.

Do you carry an umbrella to keep the sun off your back? Have you ever considered it?

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Dear Jeff,

I’m disappointed in myself for letting us drift apart the way we have. Even after I moved, I was able to talk to you about anything, any time. You always made time to see me when I would come back to visit, and I don’t think I ever communicated to you exactly how much I appreciated you taking the time to see me for a few hours, despite knowing that I would drag you into a Victoria’s Secret and then run away in an attempt to embarrass you publicly.

Sorry. Thanks for always indulging me in this silly game.

You would indulge me in long phone calls about nothing particularly important, and you would talk to me, really talk to me. About school, about your relationship, about struggling through life. You trusted me enough to tell me the kinds of things that I always hoped someone would trust me enough to tell me, even though I would never wish that kind of struggle upon you.

I can’t pinpoint when it started to happen, when we started to drift away. I do remember, however, our last phone conversation.
It was painful. We had nothing to say to each other.

There was so much silence between us.

I’m so sorry for that conversation. I wish that it wasn’t like this between the two of us. I still always want to tell you when big things happen in my life but I just can’t help but feel like you don’t care as much as you used to. Don’t feel bad if you don’t. I haven’t been a very big part of your life in years, so there is no reason for you to care as much as you used to.

I just want you to know that I still love you very much, as you remain one of my dearest friends. Although it’s unlikely, I hope we don’t have so much silence between us in the future.

I wish you all the happiness in the world.

Love always,

Starr

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Dear Leo,

I struggled for a while trying to think of which living person I most wanted to meet. While there are a lot of great options out there, I suddenly remembered my first love: Jack Dawson, brought to life through your unbelievable talent.

Maybe it’s excessive Tumblr-ing, but I’ve found myself getting increasingly upset that you haven’t won an Oscar yet. You had your first nomination when you were 19 years old, for crying out loud. What upset me most is that you’re great. Am I biased because I’ve loved you since I was 6? Of course I am, but my childhood crushes do not affect how much undeniable talent you have.

Your acting has matured with you, but you never lost that magic you brought to the screen because you, Leo, are GREAT. You are great and it pains me that you haven’t been rewarded by your peers for that. Years in Hollywood has only gotten you 3 nominations and one single Golden Globe win. I joke about how you didn’t get an Oscar nod for J. Edgar, but seriously – you played a hotly controversial, closeted, American political figure. How did you not get a nomination for that? Why can Kobe Bryant have a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame, but I can’t put my hand in your handprint? Just… why?

Aside from how I feel you’ve been snubbed every year at the Oscars, I do admire you. You helped me get into environmentalism, and I truly respect your devotion to healing our planet. Even though I know you’ll be missed from the big screen during your acting hiatus, I am glad to know that a worthwhile cause will be receiving more of your attention.

I don’t know much about you, admittedly, and maybe that’s why I want to meet you. I’ve known OF you for most of my life, but I would love to know more about you. My friends who try to bring you down a notch like to remind me of your perpetual bachelordom. Whatever, I don’t care. And I don’t care that you aren’t with Kate Winslet. (I think that’s a really silly fantasy a lot of people have: that you should marry one of your close friends because you two like each other and play love interests in movies.)

I’d be terribly embarrassed if you ever read this, but I hope one day I get to meet you, because you’ve made a lasting impression on me in more than one way and I’d love to thank you for that.

Love always,

Starr

P.S. Also, please teach me to do this:

Studying Film in College: Global Cinema

Over the course of blogging, my relationship with film will become very clear. For now, I’m going to focus on what it was like to briefly study film in college.

Almost immediately after I registered for a film course my first semester of college, I heard a joke about college kids studying cinema and thinking themselves to be the next great film critics and creators. I felt a bit silly, knowing that I was about to almost unknowingly become a part of this stereotype. But, I insisted, I had a justification to study film: my mother went to film school and it was only right that I take at least one film class to honor her legacy.

Or something.

Anyway. The class I took my first semester as a college freshman was titled “Film Art in Global Society“, with the following as its course description:

Comparative study of a variety of film traditions from around the world, including cinema from Hollywood, Europe, Asia and developing countries, with a stress on different cultural contexts for film-making and viewing.

I was disappointed because the other film course taught by this professor was more focused on the art of film-making, but as a pre-med, it was out of the question for me to prioritize that class over organic chemistry. So, this international films course was what I took and I am so glad that I did. To this day, it remains of my favorite college courses that I had the opportunity to take.

The class met twice a week: on Tuesday for 3 hours so that we could watch that week’s film, and on Thursday for one hour in our discussion sections. 3 key cinema buzzwords I remember:

  • First vs. Second vs. Third Cinema
  • Magical realism
  • Neorealism (Italian vs. Indian)

While I enjoyed the class immensely, I will admit that the first few films were a serious struggle. Our professor would spend the first 30-60 minutes of our Tuesdays talking. The reviews online indicate that many students hated this, but this was my favorite part of the class. He was a little bit nutty, sure, but he had things to say that were worth listening to. His essays and test questions were based on his interpretations of the films that he would show us; obviously, it was very helpful to listen to what he said and to take notes. (Or, as I would do, just listen really intently and remember as much as I could, as he often spoke with such fervor and speed that trying to write it would’ve been fruitless.)

But upon showing the actual films… I’ll admit, I slept through many of them. In particular, I definitely slept through most of:

  • Caché (2005)
  • Killer of Sheep (1977)
  • Battle of Algiers (1957) (I later watched this without falling asleep for another class)
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And those are the feature films I distinctly remember sleeping through. I can’t even name all the films we watched that semester, and I don’t have the syllabus anymore. I may have to ask the professor if he has the list from the year he taught me. (He probably doesn’t… he was a bit nutty.) I definitely remember being proud of myself for staying wide awake for my first feature-length film in that class: My Neighbor Totoro. (Fun fact: Totoro was the first, and last, Miyazaki film I watched. I’ll write about that later.)

I really loved this course. Even though I slept through several films, I learned enough that I can almost hold my own in a film conversation. Those buzzwords I mentioned earlier? Basis of my final paper, which I aced, which helped me to further ace the class. I ate that class up, especially our nutty professor’s lectures. He was brilliant, if a bit manic. I loved sitting in his class.

My favorite film that semester had to be Eréndira (1983), based on the Gabriel García Márquez story of a sad girl and her cruel grandmother. I wrote my final paper on this film and I wrote essays on our exams on this film as well, even though I wasn’t particularly taken by the magical realism of it.

There are a few other films that stick out to me. Ingmar Bergman’s The Seventh Seal (1957) was a close second favorite of mine. I loved the allegory and the cinematography. The scene of Jof and Mia eating strawberries and milk while Block waits blindly for a sign of God’s existence. The eerie dance of death at the end. SO GOOD, I definitely recommend this film. I also very distinctly remember struggling through Pather Panchali (1955), the Bengali film influenced by Italian neorealism (specifically the 1948 film Bicycle Thieves) that Satyajit Ray created to launch Indian neorealism. The Three Burials of Melquiades Estrada (2005) was interesting, and according to my professor, it was partially filmed on the massive expanse of land that is Tommy Lee Jones’s Texan estate.

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Did I love every movie? Obviously not. Do I prefer Second Cinema neorealism to First Cinema blockbusters? Nah, neorealism doesn’t really hold my attention usually, to be honest. Hence, why I fell asleep for almost all of Killer of Sheep. Am I snooty about movies now? No more than I was before taking the class, I think. (Which was plenty snooty, I’ll be real with you guys.)

IN. ANY. CASE. It was a great class. I highly recommend most of the film that I watched, and please feel free to comment if you want me to list out any more of the films that I can try to remember watching that I would recommend.

I also highly recommend taking a film course to anyone who has the opportunity. It exposes you to different movies that you might love, and it teaches you to watch movies differently.

“The road to Hell is paved with good intentions.”

From my own experiences, in addition to other people’s, from what I read on blogs and the like, this proverb becomes intensely relevant to our relationships with our parents.