AwesomeCon 2017 – Day 2

Last time on AwesomeCon 2017, I cosplayed as Blue Dress Ariel and spent a lot of time walking the Exhibit Hall, enjoying my first-ever convention experience.


Saturday was a really incredible, dare I saw awesome, day.

I was breaking out Sailor Mars again, fulfilling my costume dreams AND my convention cosplay dreams, and I was pretty dang psyched about it! Because this was my first convention and I’ve had red hair for all of 2017 (and have natural brown hair vs. the black-violet hair that Sailor Mars has), I decided I’d attempt what I failed over Halloween:

I would wear a wig.

Spoiler alert: I left the convention center not wearing my wig.

In fact, I didn’t make it very far at all with my wig. Because my Mars cosplay includes heels and is much more clearly a costume versus my Blue Dress Ariel outfit, Ben had us Lyft into DC rather than take the metro. As we pulled up to the convention center, I could feel the wig start to slip. You see, with the wig being quite long in the back, it was back-heavy, and I didn’t really have it particularly well-secured to my head.

Diana, Princess of the Amazons, and Sailor Mars... wigless...
Diana, Princess of the Amazons, and Sailor Mars… wigless…

Even as I was stepping out of the Lyft, people were recognizing me as Sailor Mars and stopping me for photos. Those are probably some of the worst photos of me, as my wig was slipping and I think it was fairly obvious that it was! (Folks were so kind, though, and told me that I looked just like the character. Except I’m pretty sure Rei’s hair was never falling off her head, revealing different-colored hair underneath.) We walked in, went through security, and immediately went to wait in line to see David Tennant talk about space and time travel. While I was realizing that the very friendly young girl in line with me was not the child of the couple next to her and was just standing there by herself talking about Doctor Who to whoever would listen, I came to a terrible realization:

My wig was straight up just falling off my head.

The wig was already making my head hot, but this realization made me break out into a full sweat. People were still trying to compliment my costume when I made the executive decision to take off my wig and go to the bathroom to try to secure it to my head better. (We had a very long line ahead of us so I wasn’t too worried there.) In the bathroom, women and girls were still telling me that Sailor Mars was their favorite or how much they loved watching Sailor Moon, which was so lovely to hear. Regrettably, I was not as cordial in the bathroom as I was outside or even as I usually am in a bathroom because I had bobby pins in my mouth and was furious combing through my wig, still sweating from just how anxious the situation was making me feel. When I finally got my wig back on, I realized my face was starting to get a bit shiny from my makeup trying to contain the stress-sweat.

David Tennant Explores Time and Space was really great, though! I often forget what his natural accent sounds like, and he’s just a very charming man, so the session really energized the completely PACKED Main Stage hall. It was so cool to hear a beloved actor talk to scientists Dr. Grant Tremblay and Dr. Matt Shindell about time travel and what could be possible. David Tennant had some interesting insights on the matter, along with some great stories about acting and being on Doctor Who.

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He asked the cameras to zoooooom in on his shoes because they were a very, very ratty pair of trainers. The story behind his strange shoe choice is that he wore his absolute worst shoes to DC under the assumption that he’d be purchasing a new pair of shoes at the airport and be able to finally say goodbye to those terrible shoes. Unfortunately, this did not play out as he expected, and the timing gods deemed that David Tennant would make his public appearance wearing literally his oldest and grossest shoes. He also admitted that he didn’t have a lot of advice for aspiring actors other than:

Don’t be late. Learn your lines. And don’t be an arsehole.

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“I already know what your question is going to be.” “Are you my mummy?”
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The younger brother of “Are you my mummy” was also very cute

This was my first Main Stage event and it wouldn’t be my last, and I was so so excited to be able to see David Tennant in person! With my wig panic mostly subsided and a really great first event down, I was so ready for the rest of this convention! Next up: the Felicia Day Q&A.

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Felicia Day & her ASL interpreter

One of the biggest sources of confusion during this con was how Felicia Day was in a small panel room rather than on the Main Stage. (And Wil Wheaton, too!) She is a HUGE figure in nerd culture, so seeing how many people were lined up early and crammed into the room (and turned away as well!) made me really wonder why she wasn’t a Main Stage celebrity guest. Her Q&A was really great (and I heard that even at other panels she was moderating, many fans directed questions to her) because she’s a really eloquent speaker, she is very kind to her fans, and she’s just an all-around awesome lady. Plus she recently had a baby and published a book, so it’s a very exciting time to be Felicia Day… or a Felicia Day fan, I suppose!

Before the panel started, I was admiring a girl in front of me who had a fantastic costume and a bright true-yellow wig that seemed secure and not trying to leap off of her head. While I was staring at her wig, she turned around and complimented my costume, asking if she could get a photo after the Q&A was over. I said of course but lost her in the hubbub of leaving the small panel room. And I started to feel some slipping…

No time for wig slipping! We needed to eat lunch or we wouldn’t be able to eat for several hours because of certain schedule constraints we had. We headed to one of the food areas where Ben and I waited in line to get food when I felt more and more slipping. I could feel my wig panic seeping back in and as my panic-induced sweat started beading up on my forehead, the wig only slipped more and more. There I was, standing in the middle of several lines of people AGAIN, and I had to do something.

I ripped off my wig in the middle of waiting in line and shoved it into Ben’s backpack.

I didn’t know what else to do! My hair was a COMPLETE mess at this point and a lot of people (and children, I’m so sorry children!) just watched Sailor Mars take off all of her hair in a flustered fit. At least I later had a turn of good luck when I was able to snag a little table for Ben and I to enjoy our sandwiches at, because I really need to just sit and wallow in my shame for a bit.

I was bested by my wig. I would not try it again. I admitted complete defeat.

As I was eating and waiting for Ben to come back with his food, someone came up to me and asked for my photo. Oh no. Ohhhhh nooooo. I said “Sure, of course!” and then proceeded to wipe all the whatever was on my face off, try to make my hair behave, and put my gloves back on for this photo:

Sailor Mars cosplay
Thank you so much to @the_markfuentes for this photo! I’m sorry for how flustered I was when you caught me.

In any case, my wig panic had me very flustered and needing to just sit and recover for a while, but I was ultimately very relieved to have lost my battle with the wig. It meant I didn’t have to worry about it anymore, even if my hair was now less accurate to the character than it was before.

From there, it was off to the Exhibit Hall. Earlier, we were in the wrong line for the Main Stage and had accidentally found ourselves in the Exhibit Hall line. Luckily, we were able to stroll in, although it was SIGNIFICANTLY more crowded than Friday. There was some bumper-to-bumper pedestrian traffic and a lot more cosplayers sitting on the floor trying to catch a moment’s rest.

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Finally found a Sailor Moon!
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This amazing cosplay made me immediately shout out “EMMA FROST” and beg for a photo. He was so gracious and so glamorous, I still think about this one, often.
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Yates and Holtzmann from the new Ghostbusters
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Superman facing off with a Dalek (was very scared for this boy)
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I recognized this amazing cosplay while I was there but I can’t think of where she is from right now – help?
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Two Doctors, two sonic screwdrivers
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Lil Joker flirting with two Harley Quinns
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INCREDIBLE Disney Princess-Star Wars crossover group with Jedi and Sith princesses (and a T-Rex in the background)
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Ninja Pink Ranger from the Power Rangers movie (that I own on VHS)
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Leelo and Ruby Rhod from Fifth Element, which celebrated its 20th anniversary this year

Before long, it was time for us to get into the only celebrity meet-and-greet-type line we would wait in at all, because I was one of the lucky fans who got tickets to an Edgar Wright autograph session, along with my friend Annie! Even though I had just asked him a question at his Q&A at the Baby Driver screening, I was really excited to be able to meet him up close. He signed another Baby Driver poster for me (the same one I got after the screening) and I was able to thank him again for coming to DC and answering my question on Thursday.

Baby Driver poster, signed by director Edgar Wright
“E. Wright – 2017” Thank you Edgar Wright for this autograph and for this really fun movie!

Unfortunately, we weren’t able to spend much more time in the Exhibit Hall as it was off to see the Jason David Frank Q&A at the Main Stage. Growing up, I was an ENORMOUS Power Rangers fan. As one of many young girls who wanted to be the Pink Ranger, Tommy had a special place in my heart, so I was thrilled to see him in person.

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Jason David Frank aka JDF aka Tommy aka Green Ranger aka White Ranger aka childhood hero to many

Jason David Frank was… not quite what I was expecting him to be. He had so much energy but not in the way that other celebrities that we had seen and would see did. As soon as he walked on stage, he had his phone and was interacting with a Facebook Live audience. Do not let anyone tell you that JDF is not dedicated to his fans, because he is. He frequently mentioned Facebook Live during his Q&A and even had a giveaway for those fans that he prioritized over a giveaway he did for the people asking him questions. But what worried me wasn’t this steadfast love for his fans, but just… attempting to follow his thought pattern. His answers were all over the place and I felt a little concerned for my Green Ranger! I remember in particular that a fan had asked about security at these conventions, because Jason David Frank was actually the target of an assassination attempt at another convention earlier this year. I didn’t know this, but his answer about having security guards that didn’t do anything being the reason that the attempt happened was strange, second only to his proposed solution that security pretend they are doing something and act busy. “Act busy!” he repeated over and over, pantomiming things that security could do to feign security-ness. In any case, I think he is finding some great success with his new gig playing Bloodshot and I wish him the best! As disorienting as his Q&A session was, it was still super cool to see him in person after idolizing him for so much of my childhood.

After debriefing with Annie and Ben to confirm that we were all concerned about the Green Ranger, Annie split off to go to the Wil Wheaton Q&A while we circled back in the line to see the John Barrowman Q&A. I felt guilty dragging Ben to this because he had no clue who John Barrowman was, having never seen a single thing he’s been in, but John Barrowman is something of a legend at these geek conventions and knows how to put on a wonderful show for everyone. He strutted out in heels and a TARDIS onesie (or as someone exclaimed gleefully, a romphim) and was everything any fan could hope for him to be: loud, suggestive, funny, charming, supportive of the 17-year-old girl who covered the depiction of bisexuality in the media…

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John Barrowman!
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Hamming it up for the camera… and the cameraman

He told us a funny story about his in-laws (it involved his husband’s unexpected appearance during a livestream) and reveled in how his ASL interpreter signed the phrase “hung like a donkey”. We learned that it’s tough being recognizable when you have “old man hair” in real life and are accused of looking like someone famous… but way older! He wrapped up the Q&A singing Frank Sinatra for us and I left feeling so giddy and energetic. Even Ben perked up significantly after being very confused by the Jason David Frank session and despite not knowing who John Barrowman was. By the time that panel had ended, we were ready to go back to the Exhibit Hall and maybe, finally, purchase some items that we were contemplating the day before.

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Strutting his stuff in a pair of pumps
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With husband, Scott, in his Captain Jack Harkness jacket

Unfortunately, the Exhibit Hall was closed already! It closed a lot earlier on Saturday than it did on Friday, and we were pretty disappointed. We had no choice but to turn back and go to the video game parlor, where Ben completely destroyed some kids at Halo. Lemme tell you something: Ben may not have played Halo in a long time, but that game raised him when he was in middle school. He has clocked more hours as Master Chief than I can even fathom. So despite “going easy” on the tweens with the other controllers… they really didn’t stand a sliver of a chance.

While we were gaming, we regrouped with one of my co-workers, Joe, who I was able to persuade to attend AwesomeCon by telling him that David Hayter was going to be there. As a huge Metal Gear Solid fan, Joe essentially came out just to see David Hayder, who voiced his favorite game and whose voice acting is actually an aspiration of Joe’s! (Later, Ben commented that Joe had an excellent voice before I told him that he did some amateur voiceover work on the side.)

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Codex, from The Guild, with Diana, from Themyscira
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Awesome Yondu who was REALLY tall
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So delighted to find Cortana, especially with Ben being the big Halo fan he is
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Belle and Star Lord lounging on the steps
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This wee Deadpool was running up and down the steps for a looooong time
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Indiana Jones and Mars tried to switch poses

After catching up on our AweseomeCon adventures, we met up with Annie and Connie to grab dinner. It was Joe’s first time having poké AND his first time trying mochi ice cream, and it was very delicious. I imagine that passerbys who saw Sailor Mars in the window eating poké were a little confused, but I had an awesome time with my friends, cosplaying, and seeing these great celebrities. I was only sad to think that there was only one day left of this convention. I didn’t want the fun to ever end.


Who are your favorite cosplays in this batch?  I have already professed my love for the glitter-bearded Emma Frost and the awesome group crossover cosplay.

Have you ever been surprised by how a celebrity acted in real life?
Have you ever gotten to see a celebrity and s/he was everything you thought s/he’d be?

One more day of AwesomeCon recapping left!

AwesomeCon 2017 – Day 1

The year is half over and I can jubilantly check off one of my New Year’s resolutions:

I resolve to cosplay at a fan convention this year.

While I excitedly prepared for my first-ever con, a lot of folks asked me questions like:

What do you mean, you haven’t been to a convention before?
But you’re such an enormous nerd?
How long have you been cosplaying for?
What do you mean, you’ve never cosplayed before?
But you’re such a gigantic and vain nerd??

The truth is, I didn’t have particularly good reasons for not attending a con before. One of the biggest prohibitors was that I didn’t think I belonged at a comics convention, specifically, because I don’t read comic books. But these conventions have evolved past the comics and have become much broader-interest fan gatherings that include nerds —like myself— who are not comic book readers.

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“It’s just nerds who love comic books. I’m not THAT kind of nerd.”

In fact, as I was walking through the Artist Alley with Ben, I was lamenting how I felt a bit guilty walking through, because some of these artists were highly acclaimed comic artists whose work I was completely unfamiliar with and unappreciative of. As I was telling him how I didn’t know a single artist in the Artist Alley, and how overwhelming i was to be surrounded by so many vendors and artists and fans, I saw a corner table with something familiar on it…

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The view on the way to the Exhibit Hall

… it was Dinosaur Comics and I was approaching Ryan North‘s table and I immediately started to panic. “Oh, do you know him? There’s no one there, do you want to go say hi?” Ben asked me. “NO we must leave now,” I whispered as I scurried away. Eventually, after walking a big lap around the Artist Alley, I summoned the courage to say hello and Ryan gave me a postcard! I’m a fan of his work on Dinosaur Comics and part of why I felt weird going up to him was that I wasn’t super interested in buying any of the merchandise he had? So I started feeling like I needed to buy something to say hi, but also that it cheapened the whole experience with the exchange of money… so I just said hi and he gave me a cute postcard to prove that I did it!

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Ryan North currently writes for Squirrel Girl! He also writes for Adventure Time but I don’t follow that show.
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Look at this awesome drawing of him.

But let’s rewind a little bit for Day 1.

Small child shooting Stormtroopers with Nerf gun

The morning started with cosplay prep! Since Friday is the chillest day of the convention, I went with my more casual Blue Dress Ariel look, which was pulled together by the Danielle Nicole bag I borrowed from my friend, Gretchen. I was recognized at a coffeeshop where Ben wanted to caffeinate (not knowing that Compass Coffee was offering free cold brews at the convention center that day – womp!) and the baristas seemed tickled to see the convention-goers in costume.

Free cold brew from Compass Coffee
Thanks Compass!
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And I was tickled for my only photo with a celebrity – R2D2!

Day 1 was very low-key for us, and it was the day we were able to spend the most time in the Exhibit Hall, which worked out in our favor as it was the least crowded day. (In subsequent days, walking through the Exhibit Hall rows felt like pushing through molasses.)  It was a bit overwhelming but I loved every single second of it.

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Check out these amazing balloon creations?!
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The first game I ever played on the first console I ever had at home was Double Dragon on the SEGA Master System, and I have never seen mention of it anywhere until here
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This booth had these geeky boxes that had a fun assortment of merchandise inside
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This is the actual costume from the Wonder Woman movie!

Aside from meeting Ryan North, I was able to see a lot of really great cosplayers.

Aquaman and Ariel
Classic Aquaman!
Ariel and Eleven
The Eleventh Doctor!
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My first scout sighting! Sailor Uranus and Neptune
Ghostbusters
Who ya gonna call??
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Great group that includes Baby Doll and D.Va I’m sorry I can’t immediately name the other 2 I am distracted by this Minion girl in the back
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Take chances, make mistakes, get messy!
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Awesome Thor and a funny Avatar Aang
Wonder Woman
Diana Prince, aka Wonder Woman
Merida and Ariel
Another Disney princess! Merida in a bearskin and kilt
Tuxedo Mask, Sailor Moon, and Sailor Chibi Moon
I love a family cosplay!

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My dress was very popular at the convention, since it was a one-piece low-cost purchase from Hot Topic that really makes a look work, but I liked my added corset because:

  1. It added more shape to the dress, which was quite a bit big on me and
  2. It set me apart from the other girls wearing literally the same dress as me

That corset has become a great themed outfit investment, lemme tell ya!

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Kiss the girl… in a TARDIS

We tried to attend a panel, but it quickly devolved into a big waste of our time. A few audience members in the front were talking more than the panelists, so the folks in the back could hear nothing, and it was a very pedantic and self-indulgent discussion on the part of both those talkative audience members and the panelists, so we dipped pretty quickly. I did enjoy that AwesomeCon had a FutureCon portion of the convention, and we were able to hear NASA scientists talk about how they are using lasers in space!

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A panel on space lasers featuring real NASA scientists!

One of the big draws of AwesomeCon this year was the fact that Stan Lee was there! Stan the Man was booked all day for photos and autographs, but while I didn’t take advantage of those sessions, I was able to walk through the Stan Lee Museum. There were so many of his early comic sketches, movie props, memorabilia from other celebrities, and of course, so many Iron Man mech suits.

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A few of Stan’s sketches
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Just some of the many suits and costumes on display
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“Proof that Tony Stark has a heart”
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“Awesome Mix no. 1” in its Walkman

When the Exhibit Hall closed, we ambled over to the video game room before calling it a night with some ramen. I was more than thrilled to go back the next day with my higher-level cosplay!

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Unfortunately, Batman lost to Joker this time

I tried to hold back on photos to share but what would you like to see more of in the coming AwesomeCon recap posts? (And do you want to see more from the Stan Lee Museum because I have a LOT.)

Who are your favorite cosplays depicted? I had a real soft spot for that Ms. Frizzle!

Resolutions 2017 Check-In

Happy Independence Day, to those celebrating the Fourth of July! Please be sure to observe this holiday safely, as it is a very scary holiday for many of our loved ones, like vets and pets. 

As strange as it seems, we have officially passed the halfway mark of the year. I thought now would be a good time to check in on some of my resolutions, especially because I specifically wanted to check in and adjust some of the goals I set in January at this time.

Let’s start with the concrete resolutions:

I resolve to read at least 15 books in 2017, as I believe I can find the time to read more than one book per month given my success this past year.

According to Goodreads, I am on track to meet this goal, as I am currently working my way through my 12th book this year. I was actually a little bit concerned about reaching my reading goal because I spent so much of the first half of the year working laboriously through the A Song of Ice and Fire series. Each volume is so thick and took me so long to read that I was worried I’d fall behind and spend most of the year reading them. I forgot how voraciously I read when I’m really engrossed in a serial story like Martin’s!

I resolve to maintain this schedule. At the very least, I am trying to go one full calendar year on this schedule, so let’s hope I make it to February!

With the exception of my mental health hiatus, I haven’t done too badly with the schedule this year! And I did make it to February and the full calendar year of posting on schedule, so I’m really glad for that. I’m jumping back into the posting schedule right now and I hope I can stick with it.

I resolve to put my pride aside and seek help learning to lift, whether that means asking one of my friends/coworkers to teach me or investing in a personal trainer.
* Halfway through the year, I’d like to have a specific goal weight to be lifting.

Ah, the resolution that I knew would give me trouble. I haven’t quite gotten around to hiring a personal trainer yet, but I think it’s because I’ve been adjusting this goal mentally. I am much more interested in just… doing good form push-ups than lifting a barbell right now, so I’ve shifted my energy over to that as my goal. I am still strength-training, and that does involve weights, and I do often have people helping me check my form, but lifting as a primary strength-training activity is no longer my goal.

I resolve to run one mile, without stopping or walking.
* Halfway through the year, I’d like to have a specific time to be running.

I actually achieved this a few months ago! I don’t run very often, and given that I wanted to increase my stamina via cardio, I do need to run more. However, back in March, I managed to run an entire mile without stopping to walk, and that was a huge accomplishment for me, even though it took me almost a full 10 minutes (literally it took me 9:59?). Then, I did it again just a few days later, and I was faster then. It was one of the little ways I could feel myself getting into better shape. Unfortunately, I had a small hiccup in my fitness routine (wherein… I wasn’t doing much of it at all…), so I probably cannot currently run an entire mile without stopping. I’ll have to get back to it but I think I want to put a realistic goal of an 8-minute mile and a more ambitious goal of 7 minutes? (The 8-minute mile, while not particularly impressive, would be a big feat for me, so that’s what I’ll be aiming for!)

I resolve to be able to perform a full split.

OOPS I have definitely dropped the ball on this one. While I stretch when I work out and feel myself getting a little more flexible, I am not in splits territory at all yet, so I need to refocus on this goal so it doesn’t get left in the dust for another year.

I resolve to cosplay at a fan convention this year.

I DID THIS! My AwesomeCon recaps are coming right after this, so stay tuned for those, but I am so so so happy to have accomplished this. It was even better than I thought it would be.

I resolve to give a present a full-length talk to a large tech audience.

This is going to be really tricky. I still don’t know what subjects I am confident enough to talk about to a tech audience for an hour. It would be good for me to try to figure this out, as I really would like to start speaking at tech events more. However, this was a super ambitious goal so I’m not extremely confident I’ll achieve it by the end of this year.

I resolve to buy lunch no more than twice during the work week and dinner no more than three times a week – including weekends. I also resolve to have at least one or two evenings per workweek where I am home by 6PM.

Admittedly, this has not been going great. I can only chalk it up to poor planning, as far as the meals go, as well as just a bit of a lack of energy after a long work day and a hard workout. I’ve started getting myself back on track with this lately, so hopefully things will be better for the second half of the year! However, I am staying home more days this year, and I’m really relishing it. While I don’t come home at 6PM very often, as I try to put in a few extra hours when I am able so I can take other time off, it is still nice to come home from work, instead of stopping at another event first. The FOMO is slowly fading away.

I resolve to not let my piles live in my home for longer than one week at a time, even more preferably no more than four days.

Okay so… this has kind of been a failure, my piles have gotten a bit out of control. I plan to take advantage of the federal holiday today and sort them out, and I really hope I am able to follow through with that plan. I still have a pile (contained in a storage box) of my birthday party supplies that I really need to sort! And I don’t want to talk about my clothing pile, aka The Pile. Ahhhh I need to get that sorted out, it stresses me out.

… and that wraps up the concrete resolutions! You know, I’m doing better on these than I thought I would be, and I think that this post is just what I needed to kick my butt into gear to try to achieve the rest of them before the year is over.

Now, onto those wibbly-wobbly abstract resolutions:

I resolve to push myself to continue trying, even when I am not improving as quickly as I’d like, and to be more strategic so that I can improve faster.

Sigh… I don’t think I’ve really been pushing myself to do this, and it’s disappointing to acknowledge and admit that. I push myself with fitness now, but I don’t think that’s any excuse for me to not push myself in other areas of my life. It seems like it is, because I am tired afterward, but it’s not. I need to do better here.

I resolve to work to improve the quality of the art I put into the world as a service to myself and to others.

Unfortunately, I haven’t really felt like I’ve done this either? What are the arts I’m even putting out into the world? (I haven’t gone to karaoke at all in 2017?!) This is something I don’t know how I feel about, but it’s not a good feeling, so I will have to take some time to think about how I can turn this one around.

I resolve to make my health a priority by scheduling healthcare appointments with the necessary providers when needed and for checkups.

2017 is the first year I’ve been fully in charge of my own healthcare, having switched over to my employer insurance and getting off my family plan. But I have tried to take this in stride and this has meant a lot of doctor’s appointments. Luckily, nothing bad so far! A lot of follow-ups but that’s not bad either. I am just making sure I’m healthy from a lot of different perspectives. I do have some concerns and I’m not quite sure how I’ll feel if I get those checked and followed-up and there isn’t something diagnosable. It just means… I feel unwell and the doctor can’t tell me how to feel better? But there is nothing serious going on, it’s just small visits and a lot of little bills. I still procrastinate scheduling things (and sometimes paying the bills) for days or weeks but, in general, this has been a bigger priority for me.

I resolve to make myself heard when necessary and not to let potential discomfort and disagreement prevent me from having a voice.

This is so hard. I found myself facing how hard it is yesterday at work, because things were being said that I wasn’t comfortable with and I had to be really un-fun to address it. In the workplace is the hardest place to do this, and unfortunately it just seems to be getting harder. I’m also trying to do this in little ways like speaking up when I’m at a restaurant and the food is straight-up bad, or if someone shoves past me in a line. A lot of times when things like the latter happen, I am too shocked to say something fast enough, but I am working on voicing it. (So that lady who used two hands to push me aside on the escalator the other day? I have words for you!)

… the abstract goals are the hard ones. Because it’s hard to check them off a list on December 31, but it’s very easy to feel that you haven’t achieved them at all. Still, I make them every year because it’s important to keep in mind what kind of person I want to be and what kind of mindset and intentions will help me become that person.


It was a little harder than I thought to take a hard look at my progress with these resolutions, but it was good. I feel reinvigorated to achieve my goals and to become the person I want to be.

How are you doing on your goals and resolutions?
Do you have any tips for me on the ones that I’m slipping on?